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=IAmPhoenixMoth
like sticking a fork in a socketNewest
whitesheets.threeIn the early morning I am completely vulnerable, having just wakened from sleep; I am tender, unprepared, unfocused. An easy target for the memories, wide open to receive in full what the shock keeps me from feeling later. So it is, as the sky sprawls in sleepy pale rose like babies' mouths and the blue of the questioner, that I am broken open in gaping segments, pulled away one after another in an onslaught like Hitler's armies would have creamed their uniforms to see.whitesheets.three
Picture the coast of my native state, soft and crumbling quietly on its own- now aided by the corrosive catalyst that is hurricane, one after another,
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HoneyDew.AppleBeeDear AppleBee, I'm scaredHoneyDew.AppleBee
of words Like Naked,
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where home and historygreat storyteller,where home and history
talk black to me:
comin' from mother africa, we was slaves long ago--
da necklaces we wore back den to show our pride, our wealth, became nooses.
young student, talk white to me.
I am not an African slave.
I was born in Louisiana in 1989 and the hardest work I've ever done was babysitting three small children, cleaning up after nine relatives with no reprieve and raising my mother and baby sister
when Mommy was too tired to do it herself.
[statistics:]
there was a Daddy in the picture once o
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fille druqkswhen i close my eyes i dream of ecstasy kisses: the faintest suggestion of fingertips slow and sensuousfille druqks
tracing the edges of my pores so that they gape open wide,
hungry to suck,
to become black holes to which pleasure gravitates (none of those DARE classes mentioned the beauty and quite frankly, i think they keep secrets so they can keep the drugs.)
i dream of staccato singsong headrushes
brought on by bright blazes of snow on glass tables, inhaling ice till i'm diamond hard and frozen in the shape of flakes: shifting, changing, evolving only to melt and
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moscato, part twoexchanging my warmth for sunlight on grapes: i think it's an even trade.moscato, part two
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breathe intime has cultivated me into a purveyor of scents and memories. over the years i have collected fragrances from townhouses and towering apartment buildings, flats and third-story spaces designed to resemble italian villas;breathe in
we moved a lot.
at one time there was a house that filtered sunshine in ways church windows would weep to witness, and at another, a house where i learned how quickly "upside down" would come to define more than the position on the sofa that my mother told me would give me a headache if i held too long.
i remember my granddaddy's house smelled of Jova
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starved of fleshi am becoming a monument of constantly procreating osteoblasts stacking and clusteringstarved of flesh
and thickening into walls and rods and long lines and curves of off-white infrastructure, great dirty-colored tunnels where marrow midwifes birth erythrocytes bathed in hemoglobin afterbirth one after another.
by now the population per capita should have reached maximum levels--
enough to warrant mandatory executions (in the form of T-cell attacks),
but this nation's leader is greedy.
he wants more traffic on the venal highways, more round red businessmen; he wants more neural CEOs talking too
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Banned from dAmn.
Is this the same club you've been banning people up from speaking their mind, one of my friends nonetheless. I'm not sure what the full story is, but if you have any records of convesations, the friend's name is FluffyInDrag. I'd like to determine for myself whether she deserved it or not.
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